I'm In Here~Can Anybody See Me?
I am often curious of the various ways that people perceive one another's personalities. One friend describes me as being funny, while another sees me as being serious. One acquaintance thinks I am an eccentric, while the next one sees someone practical and grounded. Certain groups find me to be reserved and aloof, while the next describes me as warm and friendly.
Why the discrepancies and inconsistencies? Are we really mirrors of people's projections? Is our mind state dependent on our relationships and the world at large?
And as with all projections, where is our chance to really change, to embrace impermanence, to sincerely pursue an independent voice and passion that is not reliant on what "they" demand or even remember about us?
Sia, in her song "I'm In Here," encapsulates the sentiment of needing others to really recognize her, to see her inability to free herself of the past and have the personal strength to heal. She sings,
I'm in here. Can anybody see me? Can anybody help?
I'm in here. A prisoner of history, Can anybody help?
Can't you hear my call? Are you coming to get me now? I've been waiting for You to come rescue me. I need you to hold All of the sadness I cannot live with inside of me.
....I'm crying out, I'm breaking down, I am fearing it all, Stuck inside these walls, Tell me there is hope for me. Is anybody out there listening?
Rather than remaining alone and invisible, Sia wonders, will anybody witness my vulnerability and see that my heart is quietly breaking open? Will I ever be free of my imprisonments? Is anyone emotionally equipped to empathize with my suffering and help me see my way out?
Unable to face her powerless circumstances alone, she asks, Is anybody willing to listen, to walk with me and help me see my strengths? Ultimately, she hopes that someone, anyone, can help her let go of the prison of her past. She hopes she can conjure the will to break free and expose the real Sia, the one who is seen, liberated, and healed of her addictions.
We, as Seekers of The Light, must be willing to help others see that their old stories will not have to dog and imprison them forever. Personally, we must let go of any tendency to punish and judge another person by his or her past.
Because the Truth is, we are not our past.
The Truth is, each and every one of us can be changed, transfigured and healed of any past mindset. We can be expunged of negative history that wants to keep dogging us, the history that reminds others of the unconscious things we did so many years ago. And this kind of healing can happen in the blink of an eye. You see, when the divine light of Truth flashes and wakes you up, it comes quickly, unexpectedly, like a bolt of liquid lightening. You see, it is your awakeness, your conscious presence which sets you free.
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